Wednesday, September 27, 2006
EVERYTHING IS GONA BE ALRIGHT!
when i thought,
i'm the happiest and luckiest girlie in the whole wide world.
once again,
my world came crushing down on me.
i guess me and him,
are just not meant to be. =)
well,
this time i had no regrets again!
cause i know i'm tryin to change,
trying hard, trying well.
and if fate choose to play me in this way,
all i can do is to accept and
MOVE ON!
as usual,
i turn to someone.
THANK YOU! =D
i'm glad u're always there.
makin me feel that
"hey! its not end of the world dude!"
telling me,
if i'm sad, my frens will be sad with me.
and i dont want that to happen.
esp when you guys out der REALLY LOVE ME.
i know u all love me.
pamper me like a little girl.
i always get what i want!
HEH HEH! *evil grins**
anyway!
i'll stay happy!
thats a promise made to you and to myself
=D
and and.
another promise that we both know.
=)
ps: dont ask me 4 de reason k? wait til im really alright den i wil share my story with you all!
hearts, STEPH
12:24 PM
Sunday, September 24, 2006
=D
i've been far too sad
for far too long.
so, heres de CHEERY STEPHYY once again.
i finally figure out the problem with me.
RELIANCE on him.
ahhhh~ (nods)
so for the past few days,
i stop relyin on him.
and..
it makes me feel so much beta la
XD
so we're alright now
i hope.
i hope we really can reach 1yr.
its coming very soon!
lol
I LOVE YOU PEOPLE OUT THERE!
muuuaaaccckkkkssss*
hearts, STEPH
2:57 PM
Friday, September 22, 2006
why?
why am i doing this to myself?
seriously, if i cant dont cry for a week.
ANYONE should really celebrate and cut cake with me.
it feel so ___ to jus cry right after yr bday.
it feel so ____ to pin so high hopes on you yet you just let me go.
it feel so ____ that i'm just NOTHING.
stop loving.
seriously, it kills.
i wldnt mind meetin u at katong
even if i had to travel all e way
if i had my hp, i would.
and all together 2days = 7hs of slp + sore throat + >10h of standin
but i still want to.
maybe it doesnt matter to you.
where is the i'll love you forever?
where is the ok, i go pick u up
where is the are you feelin beta?
i nv regret going back,
i regret ---------
FUCK.
life sucks.
hearts, STEPH
9:11 PM
Friday, September 15, 2006
IMMA BACKKK!!!
i bet you guys miss me and my entries. RIGHT?
first of all i'm so sorry 4 not replyin to tags cus my tagboard v.hard to type =p
no worries, im changing skin soon!
HMM.
just got back from camp, kind of tired but cant slp --"
okiee
1st day:
it was raining like dunno what shit la..
den have to play in the rain i super scare i fever.
did some activities den we went rafting!
i dunno hw it feels lke to raft, i was jus lying in the middle. LOL
after that suppose to play low elements but due to the RAIN
we played indoor..
den had briefing for leaders of de day.
thought alot about what mel n vinda said..
=)
2nd day:
low elments with "low wall" and the u stand on the log shuffle yrself 1
den was~~
HIGH ELEMENTS!!
but was vvv.disappointed
we played 2 elements only..
cus we waiting to play the big swing =((
it looks so bloody fun la..
saw the REAL character of some ppl.
At night was tracking.
was great, just tt gary keep scaring us. and "THE MOON"(lol)
the whole camp ppl know abt it la..
alvin keep scolding gary 4 being in front of him.. super funny!
den me n agnes keep holding hand, so scared la.
it was muddy water, bumpy roads that bump (by jo) LOL, soft mud, routy roads.
was not bad! sth different!!
3rd day:
TCP!
at 1st der were 4 of us then de other 2 of our members gt sick
so only left with me, cheryl, a lecturer and CARROT!!!
ahaahhahaa...
it was great!! seriously!!! the sense of acomplishment.
and i had to thank cheryl!!! for being SO SO SO supportive!!!!!!
i was so afraid to cross the bridge and she was there to support me.
the leap of faith~!!
sth tt inspired me that no matter how tough is yr life, how fears gripped you someday somehow you will make it through!!! with the support from others and with your own determination!!
cus it dint seem tough but wen u really had to cross it fears gripped you but i know cheryl is there to support me.
XD
flying fox from the top of the tcp!
SHUANG ARRHHH!!! de wind and all
FUN FUN FUN!!! XDD
den it was PAINTBALL!
my group won!! both of us won!!
hahahaha..
me and a person i duno who cus we're all in mask keep shootin each other but failed
SUPER FUNNY. i think is a ger too. cus lke can tel no strength hold de gun!
hahahaha..
den wen jun an wen to run to get the bag sum 1 stood up n shoot at him
n i stood up to shoot at tt guy
i missed e.single shot
but i made him squat dwn instead.
it was campfire! was not bad.
all the new songs and all! pokie pokie remix! lol
i know my angle!! regina!!
shes such a CUTE angel she gave me m&ms and a EGG!
ok.. i've to go out le..
update again!! =D
hearts, STEPH
11:39 AM
Friday, September 01, 2006
it's the weather!
just came back from chalet..
IT WAS GREAT!
oh man oh man.
steph <3 ta05, i seriously think we're bonded!
=D
wen back to scl today,
was happy! very happy!!! loving all my sec scl fren very much!
=)
i guess it is the weather,
to make beaut chun hui me to be so EMO.
=(
i can't help it..
but thoughts keep popping up.
i wanted to love you with all my heart
and when i seriously gave up,
you said those words.
i'm not sure
but are you making a gud use of me?
when you need me,
u jus pop up.
and when u dont u jus leave..
i dont want to cry anymore..
i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want i dont want.
sometym, i jus feel lke leaving tis world for gud.
i know i should feel very contented with my life.
but im very tired..
memories SUCKS.
=__________________ (
hearts, STEPH
1:15 AM
